ai feels like blogging...

Fanah, me & Nasuha-ha~
Though i usually just call her Naz~

We were waiting for the uber slow 857 bus to go to Suntec City's Donut factory. But boy oh boy, the queue extended all the way back near the toilets~ So decided to buy the donuts another day, boo hooz~ So in the end, i bought 1901 sausage bun and 2 original pretzels for my sisters! Yummy!

Ouh yea, i just realised today that 80 and above is an A and anything lower then that is B, C & D...so yea, guess my disappointment when my grades are all B's and 1 C...no A's damn it! Not even a single A....and gawd, the projects are getting more challenging and some very hard to accomplish and it makes me doubt if i can pull through. Going to face further disappointment! And i'm supposed to be doing my works NOW but i just don't know which one to start, everything's a mess again! So yea decided to blog...

Strawberries & Creme Frappuccino

Its yummy! A little too sweet and too creamy though..but its yummy!! Decided to try this out after looking at it everytime i enter 7-eleven! LOL! Erm, since alai's face can't fit in, she decides to cam whore her finger! So yea, presenting alai's finger there! Damn short right? It runs in the family....LOL!

Some lamenting so if you wanna stop reading, no one's stopping you....

I've always felt that i am a shadow. I'm there but i disappear quickly from sight. Like when the sun's up, that's when i appear and when there's no sun, i disappear in an instance. It cross refrenced to my life in a way. I can get really confident and be doing well at a certain time but when things turn out unexpectedly, i will get discouraged easily. And sometimes, even with my friends, i will always end up walking behind them and whenever i try to walk in a line together with them, i will always get left behind...i don't know why but somehow our speed will just change and i will be at the back trying to catch up with them you know?

Somehow i feel like my presence is damn weak. Like i am some unknown even if people do know me. Even at that period of time when i was working, i was definitely doing my work properly and am doing stock taking quite fast, efficient i must say. But the next thing i knew, i got fired cos they didn't find me suitable but northing's even start yet! The shop's not even officially open yet! Why did they judge me? And every time on the way to school, i will always think to myself. Right now, you have a purpose to live and that is to go to school and get your diploma. But what happens after that? Work isn't something like school. And every time i think about that, i shudder.

And in this lifetime, i think i have made plenty of mistakes, plenty of regrets and plenty of wrong decision making. I am an indecisive person and am complex so im really trying to get over this but i seem to be doing it again and again....i must be damn broken man~ Something is definitely wrong with me...maybe i need counselling but when i think about it again, i think i'm doing fine....i just need some heart to heart but then again, who wants to listen to your lamentations and complains and whines?

I hope i can decipher what the fark is wrong with me and really just try to make everything better~