YESTERDAY

I think i have extremely zero [oh, i love this word] chance, i repeat, ZERO [oh, it gets better] chance of getting the MIT attachment to Boston, US. Its a rare opportunity and only those who are extremely talented or has potential will get it. The thing is i think for an art school, they only need 2 students and the presentation yesterday left me awed and speechless. So this is me you are talking about so again, zero [aaah~ love this word] chance...

The MIT attachment calls for selected students from all tertiary and universities here in Singapore. We have all the polytechnics students, the university students and the art school students battling out to attain this attachment so competition is pretty much high.

Being selected only in year 2 is surreal. In NAFA itself, we are battling against each other, what more with the year 3's and the degree students and the year 2's are pretty impressive as well.

Anyways, its alright~ I was elated i was selected for the first round but i know i do not have a chance. Zilch. Nuh-uh. Zero [oooh, this word again!] So i pretty much had low expectations. Its obvious they won't be calling me back for the 2nd round with the lecturers and the MDA people.

Its alright! I enjoyed the experience and boy now i know our MM cohort is extremely talented. Their works are impressive! I was practically smiling at myself and being awed [yes, with my mouth wide open] as i saw their show reels.

Well, hey look on the bright side, i got selected, i tried!
Even though they make me think i'm just a low level artist who won't go far in life...my confident level just drops drastically and i am having negative thoughts about what is it really that i am living for? Where am i going? What is my future? It scares me badly...i have no idea what i want to do in my life...